Feelin shit

I feel like shit and it's not just comedown. Am starting to detox as I've been fasting for the last 36 hours so my body's trying to deal wiv the normal toxins and whizz on top of it. No wonder I feel like shit!
Been throwing up acid and I know I'm dehydrated. I don't have any ketones yet tho.I have no idea what my blood suger is as I've lost my machine.I normally can tell pretty much my levels from how I feel but c/d and detox messing wiv my ability to read it.my head is pounding but dare not take nurophen on already acid stomach.paracetomol does nothing for head aches.... Come to think of it neither do tramadol or oramorph. I think codeine the one thing that does and Its the one thing I ain't got!


I am supposed to do things today.doubt I can get out of them either so I'm gonna have to do more whizz.laying down for a last attempt at a nap. Wish me luck, I'm gonna need it

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     I have to write the last week off. And bloody learn from it too-if nothing else!




I went to see St Jimmy today and got some of the magic white powder that enabels me to function how i want too and keeps me from eating!

Group

The scale says i have put on the 8lb i lost thankx to the last 4 days binging. I have group herapy this am and i have nothing to wear that covers my distended stomach. I so dont want to go.i feel like shit.I look suck a mess it makes me cry.The girl in therapy who also has an E.D and who hates me we see how fat and pathetic i am. I am pathetic for even thinking this! i so dont wanna go.......


.....Im going tho.And ive taken a colon cleanse because my stomach is swollen anyway.Considering Fruit and veg for 4 days then fasting for at least a week................

I knew this would happen....for over a year I beg hubby to go back to work. He finally does and I can't hack it I don't know what's wrong with me!
I was doing so well and had lost 8+ but sinces Monday it's been get up take boy to school binge, purge, laydown, pick boy up binge, purge, nap binge sleep. Seriously it's all I've done for three days.
What's wrong with me? I wanted hubby to go back to work. I promised him and myself I would sort the house out, start cooking, do things wives are suppost to do instead of being a duvet that smokes and eats!
But the last 3 days I've had no rng at all and the thought of facing the days seems to much-so I start to binge.part of the problem is that there is not one thing in my life I like doing or find pleasurable.nothing

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Ana's voice in my head