I'm passed the 48 hour mark of my 3 day fast-only another 24 hours to go which i am quietly confident i will make but worry i will jinx it if i say its in the bag. Considering continuing fast for longer but have not decided yet.Whenever i do break my fast i plan to keep to5-800 Cal's for a week or two and then review my progress and plan.
If i could id take more whizz and make it a 3 righter- but if i do that i will crash Monday and that would be a disaster so I'm coaxing my body with 3 yummy Diaz's which have chilled me out but no were near sleep!I have anti-psych meds that would knock me out but then that would be the whole of tomoz lost.What i could really use is a drink but whats the point of fasting all day to then consume 1500 Cal's in alcohol? Pointless !
Oh god i feel weary and overwhelmed with my life. There is so much i need to do and get on top off.
I have all these dreams and goals I'm working on but i cant even function well enough to keep up with being a wife and mother with out chemical assistance! At times like this i think who am i kidding? I'm never gonna be able to be who i want to be.....its impossible-I'm so far from it.
found some codiene for my head and took anti-sickness pills.Still no joy with a nap but i knew that wasnt gonna happen.So up i get bomb more magic powder and feel as good as new..............untill tonight anyway!
I feel like shit and it's not just comedown. Am starting to detox as I've been fasting for the last 36 hours so my body's trying to deal wiv the normal toxins and whizz on top of it. No wonder I feel like shit!
Been throwing up acid and I know I'm dehydrated. I don't have any ketones yet tho.I have no idea what my blood suger is as I've lost my machine.I normally can tell pretty much my levels from how I feel but c/d and detox messing wiv my ability to read it.my head is pounding but dare not take nurophen on already acid stomach.paracetomol does nothing for head aches.... Come to think of it neither do tramadol or oramorph. I think codeine the one thing that does and Its the one thing I ain't got!
I am supposed to do things today.doubt I can get out of them either so I'm gonna have to do more whizz.laying down for a last attempt at a nap. Wish me luck, I'm gonna need it
If i could id take more whizz and make it a 3 righter- but if i do that i will crash Monday and that would be a disaster so I'm coaxing my body with 3 yummy Diaz's which have chilled me out but no were near sleep!I have anti-psych meds that would knock me out but then that would be the whole of tomoz lost.What i could really use is a drink but whats the point of fasting all day to then consume 1500 Cal's in alcohol? Pointless !
