Manic Monday

LISTNING TO: Alanis Morrestte

READING;Fear of the collar-Patrick Tougher

DRUGS TAKEN: 80mg tramadol and weed

Monday weigh In- 5lb LOSS

 Spured on by my sucess I actually kept to my monday routine of housework. Even tho i had very little green left it was much eaiser to make my self function because hubby wasnt about. Whats that about? It Makes me so deppressed that he is hanging around the house all day doing nothing but the school run and messing about on the net and he acts so hard done by if i ask him to do any thing.

About the middle of march we made a deal that he would of activley looked for work and he would of made an appointment and gone to the c.a.b to see were we stand on benifits. Like most things we talk about doing it wont happen i know! Apart from taking levi to school in the morning there nothing i can do to disprove his "im at home because levi needs me and your not well enough" bollox of an excuse.

ACCOMPILISHED TODAY:

2 Loads of mates washing,washing up,cleaned oven and sideboards,hovered and tided lounge,Put away or hung up all the clothes from the massive pile at the end of bed,sorted out all my clothes that are sadly too small, put them in vacum packs(That rachel gave me for that express purpose over a year ago!)Sorted dressing table,polished and hovered bedroom,had a shower and went to see Spirit and gave him £50 for green,got my shit ready for college,didnt binge,didnt purge

INTAKE/OUTPUT

carrots=70

chicken=396

candy sticks=140

bournvile=220

fruit jelly= 150

not done any exercise other then the vacuming which may of burned a bit.

Didnt purge today but did take laxies

In at the deep end

This is my first blog. I wanted to put up few posts about my reasons for writing and my history but i never seem to get the time so im not writing at at the moment and that frustrates me.So ive decided to just do what i do normally when i start some thing new and just jump in at the deep end!Here goes......


This week has been a good one in so far as ive got alot done. Been to college, stayed over at  My  mates, Finaly gave her our old cot,built it and changed her room round. It was a squezze but i worked out a way to fit everything in the one room- kingsize bed,the girls bunch beds,the cot,3 chest of draws,and two bed side tables! She only has 5 weeks till her due date...i am almost as excited as she is!




Even tho ive not slept in more then 90 hours i made my self do what id promised my littke boy.I love thursday nights when mark goes out!levi stayed up till 9 30 wiv me.We  watched The movie =how to train your dragon  together under the duvet.I let him  pick what he wanted for a lte tea and then i fed him a mound of popcorn and sweets.
I have noticed that the less i am eating the more i feed him sweets and crap! Lke i eat vicariously thro him........So far this week ive not been over my 940 limit.Yesterday was 6 or 700 (bloody fluids! i resent drinks having cals!) and today more like 250 but i might have a horlicks before bed

Freedom To Tell Truth

It seems alot of people like to interact on the Internet because they can pretend to be someone else,creating a profile of who they wish they are or who they want others to believe they are.Creating a whole fake persona from the person their friends and family know.
I wonder what it says about me that I am doing the oppersite?That my fake persona is all my friends and family know!