stupid drugs...or lack off

So this week was supposed to be a week free of whizz-but i got to Thursday and faced  with group therapy i lost my bottle- maybe next week i will have better luck.Actually it may be in forced as my weed guy has none for 2 WHOLE FUCKING WEEKS!!! I'm  desperately seeking other avenues but nothing hope full.

Thing is these two weeks gonna be hard anyway. Benefit change overt,find childcare,prepare for college, loose some more lbs-I'm trying not to freak out! Because lets face it that wont help or change anything.Also i could get by on 10 bags I'm sure but just that get by. Glee says i need to be satisfied if i manage that but I'm not.I don't think i ever will be,i don't think i ever wanna be........